Just like players, I too am a fan full of superstitions. Wade Boggs of the Red Sox, Yankees and Devil Rays ate chicken before every game. I am wondering, am I blogging too much?…not enough? There is more than the question of blogs. Let me explain…

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A FAN OF THE INDIANS! I have seen every type of moment that the Tribe has presented since 1977. I saw a perfect game on television on May 15, 1981 with Len Barker. I loved Joe Charboneau’s 1980 rookie of the year season. I saw when Joe Carter led the team to win 10 in a row and finish in fourth place only to be picked by Sports Illustrated to be special and fall flat. The revival of the 90’s and when I thought our 1997 team was better than 1995. It was interesting that I never had time to follow the 2005 team but went to Game 4 of the 2007 ALCS against Wakefield. With all these memories, I have seen a common idenity that I saw at the end of last year…effort and fight for respect. I take the Indians personally.

I prayed that the Browns would lose….wore Denver shirts to school….I saw the shot that Jordan had against the Cavs and when Mark Price left, so did my heart for the team. However, with the Indians, I have remained faithful. This year, I have not watched or listened to one Cavalier game. Good thing, they keep winning. Yet its interesting. I never think to let go of my dream for the Tribe. I often joke saying that the Indians will finally win when my career gets reestablished and I am relocated to a place out of Ohio and sent to a place yet to be determined.

Tonight was another one of those games that I said we had and let go. We had the Red Sox on the ropes in 2007 up 3-1 and let them go to knock us out. Tonight we had Papelbon on the ropes with runners on and could not tie it up and let them go. Where is the fight? What is the plan? I wonder if I just care too much and need to let go and expect my team to lose 120 games then it won’t be so bad.

I want to say this player or that player has to go, this coach or that coach has to go. Yet what good does my blog do to change this? I see talent and plans going to waste, yet no one is talking enough. I wonder when this team will catch on. Perhaps I need to make this a general blog about all things baseball. Yet this would be hypocrisy. I love my Tribe They are my team. At 7-13, this looks bad. I just wonder how this, if this is ever going to turn around.

A microcosm of what I saw. Grady was at third, two out. Skinner, the third base coach is telling him something, yet he acts as though he is brushing him off. Also I saw a tremendous try at a ball by Grady in the top of the ninth. Ben Francisco does not back him up. He gets the ball and keeps Lowell at first.Eventually the Sox don’t score again and only score the three. Fans beside me think they may be the curse and may not come back. We have individual leaders yet the team is divided. End of story. As my faith tells me, a house divided cannot stand. This house has cracked and I’m wondering how to fix it as a fan.